Thursday, September 18, 2008

Happy Anniversary!

It has been a wonderful 6 months since you offered your submission and the beginning of a new beautiful and ever growing relationship. You are my Angel, my Slut and my friend. We have shared so very much in these short 6 months but it feels as though it has been several incredible years.

You have been a wonderful and happy addition to my life. I have been happy helping and pleased with your progress in losing weight. Your dedication and devotion has been very good and to me absolutely fabulous. I simply ignore your grumbling and send you off to the gym
or create new inventive supplementary exercises.

I have be a witness to your incredible growth, you are more self confident and happy in life now. So very much has happened in each of our lives, it is wonderful to be able to share with you the good and bad. Job changes, job politics, household politics, evacuations, dieting, politics, religion, the letter 'u', metric and philosophy.

Anytime one of has been upset, the other is there for the other. You know that I am not going anywhere without you and that our relationship is real; that we are growing larger and we are growing together. I am always proud of both you and your actions.

I love YOU deeply.

Kisses on your halo ....

Your Master and friend,
TheWiz666
(insert MY name if you know it, with MORE kisses and a HUGE hug)

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Awaiting Your Arrival .. Part 1

*** This is a story that I wrote for 666 ... I hope you all enjoy it ... its the first time I have ever posted for the public to read ... Please feel free to comment ..... His Angel***



Awaiting Your Arrival
Part 1



I wake up slowly the sun shining thought the window on my half exposed naked body. My skin feels warm and I smile knowing that you will be back tonight. I have missed you while you were away and I can’t wait to see you. Getting up the first thing I do is go check to see if I have any e-mail from you. As soon as I open my mail I see your e-mail waiting there for me. I love to see that I have mail from you and I hurry to ready what you have written me. I click open and smile as I read your words to me.

My Angel,

I have missed you while I have been away. I have had so many naughty thoughts running though my mind and I can’t wait to be back tonight so I can play with you. I will be there to see you at 9pm tonight, I expect you to be ready for me, I want you to be a horny slut for me today here is what I expect of you.

You are to take a long hot shower making sure you are extra clean for me, be sure to pay extra special attention to that pussy and ass I own. As soon as you get out of the shower you are to insert your anal balls and remote control vibrating egg. Once you have done that you may go about getting dressed for the rest of your day, but slut no panties today, I want you to feel slutty today. Every hour on the hour I expect you to turn your vibrator on and leave it on for 10 min. You are to turn it off after 10 min the point of this is for you to be hot and bothered not satisfied. Every hour on the half hour you are to attach clothes pegs to your nipples, twist and turn them for 10 min. By the end of the day your nipples will be very sore, it’s what I want I know you will make me proud.

At 8pm tonight you will go freshen up but you are not to wipe your pussy at all I want to know how slutty you were for me today. Be ready at 9pm kneeling naked with your collar and cuffs on by the front door. Turn the vibrator on and have the remote to it held out for me to take control of when I arrive. I can’t wait to see you tonight. I have a surprise for you, something you have been asking for.

I love you
666

I close the e-mail and sigh, I know that I will be so worked up by the end of the day but I can’t wait to see you tonight so I am very excited. I sit there for a little longer pondering what your surprise will be but decided not to worry too much I am sure I will love it. I go start the shower and undress looking at myself in the mirror. I feel good looking at myself naked in the mirror with only my collar on. As the water gets to the prefect temperature I remove my collar and get in. The water feels so nice on my body. It’s warm and I close my eyes letting myself relax as the water runs down my body. The water starts to cool and I decide I better wash my body and hair before I am left with no warm water. I lather my luffa and make sure to pay extra special care to my ass and pussy. I thoroughly wash both areas running my soapy fingers in and around them. To make sure my pussy is extra desirable to you I shave leaving the skin smooth and soft. Quickly I wash my hair and get out of the shower.

Drying off I walk to my bedroom to get the anal balls, remote control vibrating egg and some lube. Lubing up the balls I insert them in my ass feeling both balls pop in. I stand and wiggle my ass feeling the balls vibrate deep inside of me. I slip the egg inside my already wet pussy and put on my bra looking at the panties knowing I have to go without today. I slip on a cute summer dress and slide my feet into some sexy heels. It’s Saturday and I need to run some errands. Before I know it is already 12pm and I turn the vibrator on and set the timer on my phone for 10 minutes. The vibrator buzzes away making the balls in my ass move, as the 10 minutes come to an end I am hot and bothered and really don’t want to turn my vibrator off but remember your words about this not being about me being satisfied but about me being so very horny by the end of the day. I turn the vibrator off and quickly go to my car trying not to think about my throbbing pussy. I drive to the store and as I pull into the parking lot I see that it is 12:30pm and I need to put the clothes pegs on each of my nipples. I look around but it’s pretty busy and there is really nowhere to hide so I pull out my boobs until I can see just the nipple, I quickly look around to make sure no one is watching and I put the clothes peg on twisting and pulling on it for the full 10 min. When the timer goes off I take the pegs off yelping at the blood rushes back in. Getting out of my car I make my way to the store my nipples hard and tender. I hurry thought the store picking up the things I need but I am not quick enough. 1:00pm hits and I reach in my purse and press the button bringing my vibrator to life. I sigh feeling the toys inside me and my pussy juices starting to drip down my leg. Quickly I make my way to the check out, being very distracted by the toys and so glad when the 10 minutes is finally up. As soon as the times goes off I turn the vibrator off and rush to my car hoping that I will make it home before the clothes pegs need to go back on.

“Gosh dang it” I say out loud as 1:30pm hits and I am still not home. I pull off the road and onto a street that isn’t traveled much. I pull my boobs all the way out this time attaching the pegs and gasping as they pinch. It’s already so painful and the 10 minutes just started, I reluctantly bring my hands up to each peg twisting and pulling, trying my best to make you proud. I twist and pull, my pussy betraying me it leaking onto my car seat. My pussy begging to be touched while my nipples are screaming in pain. Just as my 10 minutes are up a car comes down the road from behind me. I freeze up as they pass; I make eye contact with the man driving the car. I am so embarrassed that I rip the clothes pegs off screaming as I do and pull my bra and dress top up over my exposed breasts. Turning the car around I return home with 2 minutes to spare before my vibrator is to come back on. As soon as I get in the door the clock announces that it is 2:00pm. I quickly put down my things and turn the vibrator on. I sit on the couch with my naked rear touching the cushion and my dress hiked up around my waist. Spreading my legs I let the vibrator do its magic while the anal balls roll around making me squirm. The timer announced the end of the pleasure and I was not ready for the vibrator to go off but turned it off knowing you would be upset with me otherwise. I moan out loud so horny and worked up, wishing so badly that you were here to fuck me long and hard. I lay on the couch, my pussy throbbing and soaking wet. I am dying to touch it but think better of it, you didn’t mention that I was allowed and I don’t intend on being punished after you have been away for so long. As 2:30pm hits I reach into my purse and take out the clothes pegs I attaching them to my nipples letting out a long moan. My pussy is begging for attention as I twist and pull on the clothes pegs, I twist hard and let out a cry followed by some tears. I smile, wishing you were here to kiss my tears away. I continue to twist and pull, my pussy dripping on to the couch. When my time is up I get off the couch and kneel in front of it licking the wet spots up while rubbing my nipples on the edge of the couch to pull the pegs off.

My nipples and pussy both throb, my nipples begging to be gently rubbed to remove the pain while my pussy is begging to be rubbed to receive some pleasure. I still have 6 and a half more hours to go before you will be here and I can think of nothing but my pussy, my nipples and having your hard cock in me. I decide to busy myself with some chores straightening the house and doing some laundry before you arrive. This helps a little but the brakes every 30 min to turn the vibrator on or to torment my nipples are driving me mad. My pussy is now dripping wet almost constantly and my thighs are slick with juices making me feel dirty, I know this is exactly what you had in mind. Hot, bothered and horny, I go and lay back on the couch waiting for 7pm to come around.

At 7pm on the dot I turn the vibrator on and grab a book of naughty stories. I should have known better this late in the day while being so turned on, the stories had me imagining I was the girl in the story being spanked for being naughty and then giving my Master a blow job to thank him for caring for me. As the 10 minutes came to an end I was desperate to give my clit some attention it ached to be touched and not being able to was driving me insane. I turned the vibrator off feeling the frustration build inside of me wishing so badly I could just play with my clit. I reached for my cell phone to call you but I got the machine. “Hey leave me a message and I’ll get back to you … BEEEEP.” So I left you a message. “Sir, it’s your slut. Um I was wondering if I could Um please be allowed to play with my clit or maybe you could come over sooner I am so very horny and just really want to see you. Um well ok I would really like you to fuck me. Please call me back, I love you.”

I hang up the phone and know that you were probably sitting right there looking at the caller id when I was calling, and now you are listening to the voicemail grinning from ear to ear knowing that I am so despite to play.

I know at this point that I only have 2 more hrs and 3 more play sessions to go before I get to see you. As it gets closer to 7:30pm I get my clothes pegs and hold them in my hand waiting for the time to come to put them back on. My nipples are so very sore and I know these last 2 sessions are going to be very painful. I clench my teeth and put the first peg on letting out a hiss of pain before putting the next one on. I laid there not wanting to pull or twist them but also didn’t want to disappoint you being this close to the end. I got an idea and kneeled on the floor and got into the submissive position, ass in the air, head to the ground, arms stretched out in front of me, this of course caused my pegged nipples to dig into the ground. I breathed in deep as I felt my nipples rub against the carpet. I laid there just for a seconded before reaching my hands under me and grabbed the pegs twisting and pulling them focusing on my submission to you and the pain you wanted me to endure. As the timer went off I pulled the pegs off and screamed in pain. Panting I laid there relaxing my nipples pulsing in pain, I get up knowing that soon you will be here and I can’t wait to see you.

I turn on my computer hoping to see an e-mail from you but there wasn’t one there, you were really going to torment me with anticipation tonight. I close my computer and check the time 7:50pm, I only have 10 minutes to wait before I can start getting ready. Every couple minutes I check my phone for the time wishing for the time to come quicker. As soon as 8pm hits I turn on the vibrator and rush to the bathroom to start getting ready. My excitement is taking over and the vibrator is helping it along. As I move around the bathroom, putting on deodorant and make up, making sure my hair is straight the balls are rolling around in my ass and the vibrator is buzzing a little less powerful as its been used all day long. My 10 min are up and I moan loudly as I turn it off. Making sure everything is perfect I remove my clothes and spray on the perfume I know you love, the last thing I do is put on both my ankle and wrist cuffs closing my eyes to enjoy the familiar sensation. It’s now 7:30pm I sigh because my nipples are in so much pain without the pegs and this will only serve to make it worse.

I put the pegs on one at a time, I can see myself in the mirror, the pained look slowly creeps across my face. I reluctantly bring my hands up to the ends of the pegs grabbing a hold of them while twisting and pulling. My expression is so pained yet so beautiful. I love to look at myself and see the submissive me staring back; I can’t help but love what I see in the mirror. I am fighting back the tears as I have just fixed my makeup and know that the eye liner and mascara will run if I start crying now. I hold back as long as I can but the tears build and before I know it there spilling over the edge and down my cheeks. The black lines appear slowly, as the pain from my nipples starts to increase.

I hear the door open and check the time quickly it’s not even 7:40pm yet. I panic not knowing why you are early. I turn the vibrator on and rush to the front door kneeling quickly at your feet while holding the remote to the vibrator out for you.

To be continued ….

Awaiting Your Arrival .. Part 2

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Saturday, August 2, 2008

Needle Play



For a while now I have been interested in needle play, something about it just intrigues me. I have to admit; at first the thought of this type of play scared me. Fortunately, I have grown and many of the things I swore I would never do, I have at least tried. Some I have even grown to like. I am also lucky to have such a great Dominant man in my life, someone who pushes me to share my interests and to also learn about them. This paper is for me to gain knowledge about needle play and for me to share with others what I have learned. This is by no means a how-to on needles. You should always learn from an experienced person before attempting this.


Needle Play


Needle play is the practice of inserting needles under the skin of the submissive.

Most often when you mention to someone that you are interested in playing with needles they say “ouch” or “why would you want to do that?” Most people consider this kink to be dangerous and a very hard limit, but for some it’s very intense and extremely gratifying. With proper education and research this can be as safe as any other form of play.

So really what is the big deal, it’s just a little needle. A needle has 3 parts (see pic 1), the hub or plastic part that you connect to the syringe. Be sure not to remove the hub as it keeps the needle from going all the way through the skin and also gives you something to hold onto so that the needle can remain sterile. The other two parts of the needle are the shaft and the bevel. The shaft is the long metal length of the needle and the bevel is the slanted tip. For needle play you should use sterile, hypodermic or acupuncture needles. Safety pins and sewing needles should not be used. They are not sharp, not sterile and are porous so they harbor bacteria. Hypodermic needles are thin, cheap, sterile, disposable, and have the plastic hub to hold onto.

Hypodermic needles come in different lengths and sizes called gauges. The higher the needle gauge the smaller the needles diameter is. So this means that a 22 gauge needle is smaller than a 16 gauge. It is recommended for needle play to use between a 19 and 27 gauge needle that is 1.5 inches long. In general, most areas should be pierced with a 21 gauge needle while more sensitive areas should be done with a 25 or 27 gauge needle. If a more intense sensation is desired a 19 gauge needle can be used in all but the most sensitive of areas. If you are looking to purchase needles, it is best to buy them online or at a veterinary supply store, although the latter isn’t preferred because they tend to not be as sharp since they are meant to go through animal hide. Although you can buy them at some pharmacies, they can be much more difficult to obtain there.


Pic 1


As with all BDSM activities, safety is extremely important when playing with needles. First and probably most importantly, you need to be aware of blood borne diseases such as HIV or hepatitis due to needle stick injuries. You need to follow Universal Precautions and always assume everyone is infected since it’s impossible to tell who is and who isn’t infected without a blood test. If you are doing the piercing on someone else, be careful not to jab yourself after inserting the needle. Wearing latex or synthetic gloves (if you are allergic to latex) will keep the transmission of blood to a minimum, but can’t protect you from accidental needle sticks, so you need to be extra careful. Infection is the primary danger when playing with needles. To avoid infection make sure to use new sterile needles and never reuse a needle, even on the same person. After the first use, the needle, whose shaft is hollow, can harbor bacteria and becomes dull causing the skin to tear, increasing the chance of infection and inflicting unnecessary pain. (See picture 2)

Before starting, you should thoroughly wash your hands with antibacterial soap and warm water. Once your hands are clean and gloved, you can clean the area to be pierced with soap. Wipe it with rubbing alcohol and wipe it down with clear betadine (Do not use if allergic to iodine). By cleaning the skin this way you will lower the chances of infection, once the skin is clean do not touch it. When you are done playing, used needles should be properly disposed of in a sharps container or a thick plastic bottle, such as a detergent bottle, with a lid. While playing, all those involved in the play should be both alcohol and drug free. Both these substances impair judgment and alcohol will enhance bleeding. Like alcohol, aspirin can also enhance bleeding and should be avoided prior to needle play. If done properly, there is far less danger of injury or infection than from being scratched by a cat. This is due to the depth of insertion being controlled and the use of sterile needles.

Pic 2

While playing with needles you have plenty of options about where to pierce, but there are also areas to avoid. Internal organs, bones, and eyes are all areas that should never be pierced with a needle. Do not pierce the hands, wrists, or spine and be careful to avoid joints, bones close to the surface, armpits and the sternum. Also, do not pierce the penis shaft; it contains both arteries and blood vessels that should not be pierced. Not to worry though, even with those areas that need to be avoided, there are still plenty more areas to play with. The surface skin of the thighs, buttocks, arms, stomach, shoulders, cheeks, chest and breasts are the easiest and least painful areas to pierce. The easiest places to pierce are the fleshy areas like the thighs or the bottom of the navel pointing down. The genitals can be pierced and can be quiet intense to play with, but before playing in these areas you should obtain further training by someone who is familiar with and competent at genital piercings. With that said, the foreskin, scrotum, labia, clithood and the underside of the penis can be pierced to obtain a moderately intense sensation. When playing in these areas, special care needs to be taken to avoid blood vessels and irregularities in the skin. Also the nipples, cockhead, and clit can be pierced but are all extremely painful. The nipples are thick and tough, making them more difficult to pierce. Piercings in these areas should be kept shallow and are expected to bleed a little. While piercing, you can experiment with placing the needles into patterns, using ribbon to lace around the needles to make a corset look, or even gluing feathers to the hub to make wings.


Now with a good idea of where is safe to pierce and where isn’t, it’s time to have some fun. It’s a good idea to practice before actually piercing a person, a thawed roasting chicken works well for this purpose. It takes about the same amount of pressure to pierce a person’s flesh as it does the chicken's skin and provides good practice. Once you are ready to pierce a person, start by getting all the needed supplies together; soap, clear betadine, rubbing alcohol, cotton balls, needles, cork, towels and Neosporin. Wash your hands and put on gloves. Clean the area to be pierced to avoid infection. Pick a fleshy area to pierce such as the thighs or buttocks. Handling the needle carefully, touching only the plastic hub, pinch a little of the surface skin and then place the needle so it’s aimed to go through the skin with the longest side of the needle against the skin. When ready, push the needle all the way through in one smooth movement until the plastic hub rests against the skin. The needle is very sharp and should need very little pressure to penetrate the skin. To help get in the right mind set and to help cope with the pain once the needle is positioned to pierce, take a deep breath and hold it for a second then breathe out while pushing the needle through. Once the needle is in, you should allow time between piercings to adjust to the sensations and time for you to be able to judge their reaction. Everyone is different and some people do find it easier if the piercings are done quickly with little time between them. With the needle in, you can gently move it for a greater effect and more sensations.

Once you are ready to move on to the next piercing, you can put a small piece of cork on the end of the needle to keep the needle from jabbing into nearby areas. If you use cork it should be put in the microwave to make it sterile. Remember that the needle has to go back through the skin and needs to be kept sterile the whole time you are playing. When ready to remove the needle, you need to be just as careful as when you put it in. Keep the needle straight and pull it out in one fluid movement. You may see a few blood spots but these are normal. When the needle is removed, wipe the area clean with rubbing alcohol and then dab a small amount of Neosporin where each needle had been. Check your partner often, watching for the common reactions to this type of play. These reactions include being faint, turning pale, and shaking. This happens because of the flood of hormones and neurotransmitters circulating through the body. Be safe when playing, excessive bleeding, reactions, and infection are all reason to contact a physician or to go to your local emergency room. It is always better to be safe than sorry.


Now that you know the basics of needle play and how to be safe, you may be wondering why. Why do people like this type of play? For some it’s a psychological kick, a feeling of being so intimately and invasively penetrated. While for others it produces an intense natural endorphin high which can last hours and can even induce orgasm in those who experience it. Yet for other people it’s about self expression and sexual pleasure. This experience is very different from the experience most people have had with phlebotomists in medical settings. This is in part because the needle is placed through the skin at a tangent so that both ends are accessible rather than “into” the skin. So we know why submissives might enjoy it, but what about the Dominant? What makes them want to pierce an innocent willing victim? Well for many Dominants there is a feeling of total awe and wonder for the submissive that would trust them with so much of their well being. It is also just as much of a rush for them. If you are into pain, you may already know that it is possible to feel pain, not as pain, but actually as pleasure under the right conditions. This often happens when playing with needles.

Just remember to research, learn, and practice before ever trying this.


For me, I was one of those people who said no way am I going to ever do that, it’s a hard limit, no way!! Oh how I know better than to say those words now. While searching the web I came across a picture of a girl who had many needles pierced though her back and then laced up with ribbon like a corset. It looked elegant, sexy and so incredibly hot. Since then, I have been very intrigued, wanting to learn about it. I already love pain and get extremely turned on by it, so to me, this is something I want to experience. I want to be pierced. I want to feel the endorphin high that so many people talk about. I want to try this!!

Resources:

BDSM – Needle Play
Deviants’ Dictionary
IC Needle Play
Illuminations – Breast Torture
Needle Play 101
Wikipedia- Play Piercing



** Special thanks to Donriser & TheWiz666 for helping me edit **

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

My Angelic Slut,

Four incredible months have elapsed since you made the wonderful offer of the gift of submission to me on the 18th (6+6+6) of March. We have been friends for much longer. It means so very much to me, the time that we have spent and grown together ...

We have had great pleasure and fun together. Choker, hotel, shopping, doorway, skirts, shoes, coins, paper, gag, ice, corsets, no panties, rope, stories, photos, telephone calls, pegs, dirty-fun, vibrators, and plugs. You have made me feel very proud and happy.

You have made great progress in your desire to lose weight. I have tryed to be your greatest motivator and cheerleader with diet and the gym itself. You should be very proud of all of your accomplishments.

You are SPECIAL and you are LOVED.

I have lots of plans for you ... decades worth.... EVIL plans!

Love,
Me (666 )

Friday, July 18, 2008

4 Months of Happiness :)

Sir,

4 months ago today I became your submissive, something that I have been thankful for each and everyday since. I couldn't ask for a better Dominant then you are to me, you truly make me happy. In the last 4 months I have grown and had some limits pushed. One of us hates skirts but the other one just loves them :) You have also have been so encouraging for me during my diet and exercise task, if it wasn't for you I would have gave up long ago.



You encourage and expect me to be open and honest with you and I have never once felt as if I was being judged by you. You also encourage me to learn and grow, which is so very nice because doing the same thing all the time is boring and getting to experience new things with such a wonderful person is so much fun!!

Being your submissive is so exciting and rewarding. I love being able to do special things for you, there really is nothing better to me then pleasing you and making you happy all the time. Thank you for allowing me to be me and appreciating my submission to you. I love being your friend, I love being your submissive and most of all I love you so very much!!


I look forward to being yours for as long as you will keep me :)


xoxo
His Angel


I have a truly wonderful man in my life, who is kind, patient, and very loving. Oh yes and so
very evil .. believe me hes evil :)





Thursday, July 3, 2008

My Views on Finding A Master

I am adding this to my blog because both Wiz and I thought that it could be helpful for others and because it gives some incite into my feelings and thoughts on how to approach a new D/s relationship.

This all started because of a question that was posted at the Academy the question was how do you find a good Master or what to avoid. Here is my thoughts, feelings and experiences with it.

Before coming to the Academy I had experienced the chat rooms and other forums. I found some nice people but it was never what I was looking for. I also ran into so many of the "players" before coming here. People demanding my submission and expecting respect. I started having serious doubts about being a submissive and about my thoughts on submission. I thought that since I wouldn't allow myself to submit to these "bullies" that I wasn't a real submissive. Since being at the academy this hasn't been a problem but at first I protected myself from this. I didn't let myself get to know anyone, I didn't get involved with any of the conversations and all I would do is task and put everything I had into that.


I now know that my feelings and thoughts about submission aren't wrong and that there are so many different ways to submit, none of them wrong. Its easy to doubt yourself when you have someone telling you that if you don't do this then your not really submissive but in fact its really the other way around if they were truly Dominant then they would respect your boundaries. I have went through these feelings again since then at the Academy but it was easier to deal with, because I had supportive friends to lean on and to reassure me that I in fact was a good submissive. I think that to be happy in any relationship you have to find someone who shares your simular thoughts and views.

Before becoming TheWiz666's submissive I was his friend. I have been his friend a lot longer then I have been his submissive and as his submissive I am always his friend first. He helped me heal from my last relationship and has always been there for me, offering his comfort and support. So when I was strong enough to move on, it only made sense to offer my submission to him. He is what I want in a dominant. I found myself drawn to him wanting to submit to him and please him. I want nothing more then to show him the same love and devotion he shows me.

Before I offered myself to him we talked about what he expected of me, the things that pleased him and the things that pleased me but the most important thing we discussed was that we didn't want our D/s relationship to effect our friendship in a negative way and that no matter what we would both always put our friendship first. I think the most important things when looking for a new Dominant is to build a friendship first, learn about each other, find out about each others wants and expectations and then if you feel the connection, offer your submission to them.

I know that this isn't always the easiest thing to achieve and that after being in a relationship and feeling the closeness you get from it, it is hard to take the time to get to know a new person when all you really want to do is feel the closeness again and to show your submission to another but without knowing each other you are setting yourself up for a hard relationship and possible failure.

These are of course only my views and thoughts and what has worked best for me. I hope that by sharing this it helps someone else.

Curious

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

My Angelic SLUT is here to share everything ... fears, dreams and aspirations.

It may look like she doesn't want to share but she does. She just loves shoes this much.

I want her to expand her horizons.

TheWiz666

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

First things First

Hi to anyone out there reading my blog. For a while now I have been thinking about starting a blog so that I have an outlet to express myself outside the Academy. I talked to TheWiz666 about it and him and I decided that it is something we both would like.


Recently I have been going though a lot and dealing with a lot of emotions. This is effecting me both online and in my real life. I often deal with insecurities, not being sure if I am good enough. This is slowly getting better Wiz has helped me so much and his constant reassurance is so amazing. Everyday I love and appreciate him a little more.


A while back I found this submissive creed ... it is in so many ways the way I wish to be as a submissive:


I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires,
limits, and experience. I realize that failing to do so will not only
prevent my Master and I from having the best experience
possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm. I will
not try to manipulate my Master. I will not push to make a scene
go the way I feel it should. I will keep an open mind about trying
things that I am not accustomed to or comfortable with and
expanding my limits. I will continue to grow as a submissive and
as a human being. I will accept the responsibility of discovering
what pleases my Master, and will do my best to fulfill His wishes
and desires. I will not allow myself to be harmed or abused, I
know that submissive does not equal "doormat".


I will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives, I will
share my knowledge and experiences with others in the hope
that they will learn from where I have been I will take the time
to help those new to the scene start out on the correct path.


I will be responsive to my Master, I will not try to hide what my
mind and body are feeling so that I may assist Him in His
responsibilities as my
Authority, I know
that Dominants are not telepathists, and will not expect my Master
to know thought or
feelings
which I do not share.


I will never think myself a "better" submissive because I choose to
submitt on a
different level than
another. I will not be boastful of experiences I have had as a sub. I
know that my
actions reflect
upon my Master, and will do my best to help others see him in a
positive way, I will not
intentionally embarrass or displease my Master.


Above all, I will wear my title of submissive with honor, I will never
cause others to
think that being submissive means to be weak or sub~human.
I will take pride in who and what I am, and
will never show myself in a negative way.


Author Unknown


If you would like to see if you can find the submissive creed
here