Today is a happy day for me, as is every other 18th day of a month. I smile every time I write the date because it reminds me of what a great life and partner I have. It's hard for me to believe that my relationship with his has been growing for 22 months now.

In the last 22 months so many things in my life have changed. I have transformed as a person and have grown in both my vanilla and D/s life. Along the way many people have helped me grow and learn but I am most grateful to him for always being there for me. He has shown me so many things but most importantly he has showed me that love is patient, people can be trusted and happiness is possible.

I wish that I could say that i am the perfect submissive but that is so far from the truth. I have a lot of emotional hand-ups that keep me from being the submissive that I would like to one day be. He helps me through my tough times, which let me tell you are often. I have issues letting go of my control and giving it to him. It's not that I don't want to, it's that i am afraid of what will happen once I do. It is also not so much about me trusting him because I trust him more then I trust anyone else in my life. It's myself that I don't trust, I am also afraid of overstepping my boundaries as a submissive. I often wonder if I let something happen and I hate it, how do I let him know without topping from the bottom.

This of course is one of the problems with long distance/Online relationships. At least for me because I worry that he wont know when I am struggling though a scene because he cant see it in my body language and I don't want to say anything in fear of being overly pushy. He has always been there for me, understanding when I push, patient with my rebellious ways and always so loving.

I am a happier person for having him in my life. He has helped me become a happier person, it shows in every aspect of my life and other people have noticed as well. Of course when my relationship with him is strained that shows as well. I have leaned some things during the last 22 months, I have learned that a good relationship starts with a good friendship, that communication and being open and honest with the ones you love the most is the key to staying happy and that when you love someone you love all of them and you are patient with them.

I am happy to say that I have the best friendship with him as he is my best friend. I can tell him anything and never fear the judgement that people often give when you are honest. We have awesome communication, oh yes there is the occasional lapse, but we always seem to work through it. Most importantly I love him unconditionally as he truly means everything to me. I love sharing my life with him, telling him things I just can't tell anyone else. I love having him in my life because without him it's just not complete.

So today on the 22nd month Anniversary of our love and relationship I just want to tell you that I love you with all my heart and if I get to be with you forever I will be the happiest person in the world.

Kisses ... I love you!

Your Angel